how to be yourself // in which I become real

I, like many people who can relate, have different sides to me. Simply enough, I show different sides to different people. I'm not going to pretend that I have this all figured out, or that I know how to fix myself, but I'm simply going to admit that I unconsciously try to give a different impression of myself to different people. I was really touched when the thought came to me last week that God sees through my facade. I may succeed in giving people a certain view of me, but impressions are only a subjective perception. Before my Father, I'm the real me. The person He wanted me to be. If I wanted, I could just stop here and just be thankful that He knows my real self, but no. I want to be myself in front of other people. I want everyone to see who I strive to be, and encourage my pursuits. I don't want to be labeled by the group of people I fit in with or the things I do. I went through a time where I had literally no friends and I'm stuck here wondering whether it's just that I haven't known anyone long enough, or if it's just that I don't show myself. I know it's not OK and I'm paying the price for it. But how do I fix this? Am I being a bad friend? A reassurance like, "Be yourself!" isn't going to help. My questions are, "How do I be myself? Should I ever not be myself? Is my problem that I've practiced being different things to different people for so long that I don't know how to be who I am?" This is why I'm learning to trust God. For now, He's literally all I have because I know how to be myself for Him. Nothing will ever change that.

 

 

hey, guys! one last thing. I made a new Facebook page and deleted the old one. you should go like it! click here :)